He is the Light at the end of my tunnel...

This week was so so crazy, but God has been extremely good to me and very patient with me, might I add! I can finally see the light at the end of that chaotic tunnel I allowed myself to get lost in and you know what He had a cookie at the end waiting for me! Well, all that craziness mostly involved school - go figure! Last Monday I hit kind of a hard, discouraging wall with one of my classes (Calculus) and I was trying to figure out what to do. Should I stick it out, drop the class, or... what? So many options were running through my mind and I really stressed myself out! In my "spare time" after classes, I rushed all over campus to check into my various options. As my mom put it I "was running around campus like a little ant who had lost its way and couldn't find that right path again." With these well spoken words, I realized how I had put my life into a closed in, dark, one way (my way) tunnel. I had completely forgotten to sincerely consult God and His will for the whole situation! I was so worried that the goals and schedules I had thought up weren't going to be met on the time line I created. My heart had forgotten that God's timing is not at all my own, but His is by far the most wonderful and the best will ever to be. It is so sad how easy it can be to lose sight of the eternal picture and be consumed with the immediate surroundings and pressures that Satan will use to make someone stumble. Funny how God can teach a person so much over something so tiny and really insignificant!

Anyway, I sought out the guidance of my wise and patient Father and I ended up dropping the class, which proved to be a huge relief! Plus my advisor gave me some wonderful, answer-to-prayer solutions to questions I had about my class requirements for my major - Elementary Education! At last the light appeared before me and I could see the goodness of the Lord's hand at work - not that It ever stops, even if we can't see it! :o) And that extra cookie I was talking about came today in three small packages of tow-headed, little boy cuteness! I am the "nanny" to three of most lovable boys I know - Zane (6), Kaz (4), and Oz (almost 2)! I haven't seen them in a week as they were out of town and I finally got to take care of them again today while their mom and dad went out on a date. It was so encouraging to see them excited to see me and tell me all about their adventures, both true and made up! *giggle* Even Ozzie came back with a bunch of new words and he repeats anything you ask him to, which makes me laugh at times because he sounds so adorable and sometimes he'll say the word over and over again until it sounds more like the word he heard me say. They make my heart melt! They truly light up my life and their mom and dad are so friendly and sweet too! Oh wow, I never knew that my heart could handle this much love towards someone - and I feel this way about all three of these precious little ones!

Oz, Kaz, and Zane! :o]